Oh my...

Guess who can't eat rice anymore?? Guess who learned "the hard way"? Yuck...

Tis the season...

...to start walking some 5Ks.  I've signed up for two so far.  I've signed up April 20th for the Color Run!  Last year, I desperately wanted to walk this 5K, and the week before began having serious difficulties with my back and couldn't go.  I was so bummed because it seemed like my entire facebook friends list went and took pictures and posted all day.  So this year, I AM DETERMINED that I'm going and doing this!  I also signed up for the Color Me Rad run in Springfield, MO on April 27th.  It's the same principle, so I'm stoked.

I joined a facebook group called Fleet Feet Fit Chicks this week.  They are a group of women focusing on fitness and have social gatherings involving runs.  Their first event is this week and it's 2-4 mile walk/run and social hour.  I'm debating on whether or not to go.  I really want to, but am terrified that I will be the slowest/most pathetic person there and that people will look at me and wonder why someone my size is even there.  Hmm...but then when I read what I just wrote, it kinda makes me wanna go even more....I guess I'll have to update you guys next week on if I went or not.

Then there's the Sweetheart Run on 2/16. I'm really excited about this one because the proceeds go to a local camp for children and families with heart abnormalities.  I love doing races that I feel something strongly about the cause.  Hell, if there was a domestic violence race, I think I'd walk/pimp the shit outta that one.  :) I'm thinking about just doing these a few times a month even if I don't register just to get in some serious mileage.

My husband has signed up for the Warrior Dash in May.  He's going to be running a 5K, but there are 12 obstacles on the course.  I'd like to do that one, but I think that might be a next year goal.  Can you guys tell how much I wanna run?!

Diet is going okay.  I've got to figure out things to cook so that I'm not eating all the same things all the time.  Anyway, next week is the big 2 month pics and measurements post so stay tuned!

Baby's First Fill

So I went in today for my first fill.  I've lost a little over 34 lbs, but I'm hungry all the time!  I went today and the surgeon said that I'm an ideal patient.  I love it!  Although, with my competitive nature, I struggled with the fact that at my one month appointment I was one lb over my two month goal!  DAMN!  I missed it by one pound!  Either way, I got a 2 cc fill today, so we'll see how it goes.  It kinda hurt a little, but not too badly and I've been able to keep down everything so far.  Yay!

My secret dream (that isn't as much of a secret as it used to be)

I have a secret.  I have always wanted to be a runner. Like a 5K-every-weekend-and-training-in-the-week kind of runner.  Here's the problem with that: I'm fat.  Last year, I started training to do a couch to 5K program with a local running store.  I made it through all 12 weeks, and May 4th did a Cinco de Mayo run/walk.  The pictures are ridiculous, and the entire team of coaches gathered around me as a I ran to the finish as hard as I could.  I was the last person to cross the finish line, almost vomited up my soul, but dammit I finished.  Fast forward two weeks.  

Two weeks go by and a familiar pain in my spine begins again.  As I am about to get married I have no time to deal with pain and ignore it...for three months.  I then have to get spinal injections in my back to relieve the pain.  Thankfully this time, those work.  However, in meeting with the surgeon, he tells me that I've reinjured my back by running at my size.  In order to be able to run, I must lose the weight.  How much weight is vague, but alot.

So now, I'm really struggling.  I want to run.  It's in my blood.  I feel the need well up from time to time, walking outside, I just feel the urge building up to just take off like I'm gonna fly.  It seriously at times feels like I'm crushing part of myself to keep on walking.  Added to this, I'm also working on trusting in myself and my body more this year.  Yet to denied the very loud, crystal clear, flashing neon sign that my body is giving me about it's desire to run, I can't.  I have no magic number that I've been told to reach before training to run again.  And although I do not have a desire to reinjure myself, what better way to lose weight than to bust my ass training to run?  I have a few 5Ks that I'm going to be doing coming up soon, and I'd love to run them.  Maybe not the full time, but at least a little....So what do you think blogland?  Should I run?  Should I wait?  And if I wait, what weight (ha! a pun!) should I get to before starting?

Me post Cinco De Mayo Run....I'm so red-faced!   I seriously was considering yakking at this point.

Coming into the finish line with all the running coaches.

Look how happy I look!!!

And finally, just because it makes me laugh (and because I'm sure it's true...)

Bad blogger

So I have been a terrible blogger and haven't had time to blog in a while.  I will be fixing that.  Sadly, I don't have time to do a long one tonight because I have to do a reading and then get to bed, however, it's time for the 1 month check in.  This has been a whirlwind....and now for the numbers!

Start Weight: 307.2

Surgery Date 302.0 (12/17/12)

Today (1/6/13) 277.6  HOLY EFFING CRAP!

Measurements:

12/3/12                                                          1/6/13

Waist: 49.5"                                                   46.5" (-3")

Arm: 20.5"                                                     18.5" (-2")

Bust: 51"                                                        48.5" (-2.5")

Hips: 62"                                                        59.5" (-2.5")

Thigh: 33.5"                                                    31" (-2.5")

Calf: 21"                                                         19.25" (-1.75")

Neck: 14.74"                                                  14" (-.75")

BMI 49.6                                                       44.8 (-4.8!!)

And the pics!

        

This may sound weird, but I can already see a difference!  Okay, on that note, I seriously need to get off of here.  Coming soon though is a post about life since surgery!  Hopefully TOMORROW!

Last day pre-op

So tomorrow's the big day...I'm surprisingly calm.  Not nervous or anything, just been busy today.  My parents came down so that they and my husband can be there for the surgery, so I've gotten to spend a lot of time running around with my mother today while my husband and father were putting up walls in the bathroom.  (We have three walls now!)  So far, it's been a pretty chill but productive day.  I can officially say now that all Christmas shopping is completed and wrapped.  House is picked up and dusted too!

I'm finding it hard to focus on what I need to put together to be ready to go in the morning.  I really need to just lay my stuff out tonight because I'm really not at my best at 5 am.  I have to be at the hospital at 6 am, ans surgery's at 7.  I had my last diet sprite tonight, so I'm rearin' to go!  Not too much to write about tonight; I suspect tomorrow I'll post a bigger post about it all.

But for now... a picture of me and my husband this week at a Christmas light display here in town.

Day 7 Pre-Op

I've made it a week, and I'm not gonna lie...I'm hungry enough to eat a velociraptor.  Yes, currently, I would indeed eat an entire dinosaur just for the thrill of chewing.  Of course catching the thing would be problematic... I've found some really good protein powders I like though.

Lemonade Protein

1 scoop Syntrax Nectar Roadside Lemonade Powder
1 packet of Crystal Light lemonade (those bottled water drop ins)
8 oz water

Put that bad boy in your blender bottle, shake and guzzle!
(Calories: 110, Fat: 0, Carbs: 0, Protein: 24)

Aside from my growing obsession with getting in the requisite number of calories and protein in liquid form (thanks MyFitnessPal!), we're currently renovating our guest bathroom (and only shower source in the house.  This would be great if it were really the weekend project it was supposed to be.  However, thanks to one of the guys at Lowe's getting the measurements for the shower drain wrong, we will now be without a shower for the next two weeks at least!  So far, the progress that was made was we removed all walls, toilet, sink and shower, have had a plumber re-plumb the fixtures in what will be the shower, raise the shower head and replace a flange where the toilet will be, and have replaced one wall.  Every night after work this will continue to be our project for the next few weeks.  It'll look amazing when we're done though.

Since there isn't a shower at home, we have to  shower at our gym.  If I were a normal sized person this wouldn't be a problem.  However, I am too big to have the towels go all the way around me.  So my options after showering are either running to my locker, strategically attempting to maneuver so as not to embarrass myself or other gym patrons with the sight of my jiggle naked bits (a horrifying thought) or doing something which also makes me cringe, changing into a swimsuit cover up and diving for the close changing room without exposing any excess bits of skin.  I'm nervous just thinking about it.  Unfortunately, said horror will be commencing as soon as my husband returns from another trip to Lowe's.

During Demolition...

Shower during demolition

We have a wall again!

Shower after demolition waiting on our base that Lowe's ordered wrong!

Before...completely hideous....

Gotta say, the glasses my hubby look adorable!

Alright, now it's time to hit the gym.  Until next time!  (Holy crap I'm being banded in less than a week!)